March 31, 2009

Wishing and Hoping


There’s an old saying, careful what you wish for

I have this as my greeting on my mobile to remind me to never wish for things…

To just hope and accept when my hopes do not come to reality, and move on…

Never wish so hard because you spend too much energy and you will always end up disappointed, whether you get what you wished for or not.

It's that simple, or at least it should be!

Yet a wish always finds a way to sneak into my heart and into my prayers…

And for whatever reason, it comes true, as farfetched as it could be!

And it's just never the right wish!

I just wish for once that the right wish comes true for a change! And by the right, I mean the one that would really make me happy even if I don’t see it right now!

If that is not possible, then I wish I could just stick to hoping and learn not to get my hopes too high; one simple thing at a time should do…

I wish, no I hope

8 comments:

Slop said...

Very tough one that, all I'll say is just let yourself float with the current of events regarding whatever it is you want, usually if you're really drifting with the current, you'll land safely

insomniac said...

you can say that again! it's like i wish for my own doom, we eeeh do3a2y mostagab awy! :)

i realize i have no choice but to wait and see, hope for the best and detach in case things get worse... and keep the faith... but my faith keeps slipping though my hands and i feel so weak that way....

hard to just drift, i am constantly asked and provoked for a reaction and although i have no doubts about what i should do, i don't know how to do it and which way to choose to get there... and apparently, the road i take is very important at this particular point and knowing me, i am bound to screw up! stubborn proud opinionated me!

i feel trapped in my own doings!

Jim said...

God grant us the Serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the Courage to change the things we can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

insomniac said...

only we're not always wise!

Ice Queer said...

Re-read ur last posts! Prozac? Deprexa?

insomniac said...

how far back did you read?!

urgh, guess what, in the past days two well qualified psychiatrists affirmed that my mental status is actually very stable!!! i quote "she has nothing but a serious social dilmma" i never wished i could take antidepressants more than that day and i was claimed to be sane!! bummer!

Ice Queer said...

Lol too far! =P

Never take anti-depressants, they screw ur body and brain!

insomniac said...

yeah that's what i always thought, but i wanted to think they were the solution... much easier than "stop overthinking!"