April 5, 2009

Farewell…


I can’t seem to stop crying!

It’s beyond me to understand why I am so overwhelmed by a loss that’s not even mine as it is other people’s!

I didn’t know him well… it would be fair to say I didn’t know him at all!

Yet he knew all about me from the slightest of things… and it touched me too deep in my soul that he found so many positive things to say when all I felt was worthlessness!

I can’t stop crying!

I remember the kind look and the calm reassuring tone…


You’re stubborn, you’re full of stubbornness; it’s where you get that strength…

Your thoughts come from within; you hear all the other voices, but you only listen to your own voice, very individualistic…

Only you’ve never belonged to yourself; you always belonged to others and that’s why you’re too self-conscious…

You’re just beginning to find out about yourself and you like it, and perhaps you should…

I say, you continue listening to your own voice and find yourself and your passion and ignore all the voices, shut them out…


I will try to remember those words, and I will make sure I say a prayer for you when I’m done remembering!

It's amazing how someone I’ve known for so little could have that much insight into my soul...

It's even more amazing someone could bring that much peace just by saying the simplest of words!

And it hurts so badly to lose that!


May you rest in peace… and may those who have known and loved you more than I do find solace in remembering all the words you’ve told them…


Update: This is a post that was written about him, it brings tears to my eyes every time I read it!

6 comments:

Brownie said...

Allah yer7amo, sorry for ur loss

Anonymous said...

Allah yer7amo
I.m truly sorry for your loss inso.
take care of yourself.

insomniac said...

Alah yer7amo indeed...

i just came from the funeral... ironically, i heard it was his birthday too!!

he will surely be missed...

thank you guys, but compared to what i've seen today, it's not just my loss... it's a lot of people's, whom he has touched their lives

Sherif said...

Allah yer7amoh

The thing that might soothe these grieves is that .. someday we'll all gather again .. where we never seperate again .. after a long long life .. in paradise isa

Really sorry for your loss

Maxxed`ouT said...

been a while... hope all is good :)

insomniac said...

Sherif,

Thanks a lot for your words, i hope i'd meet him again that way :)


Maxxed,

given how shitty it had been lately, i am expecting things would brighten up soon, 3eeb ba2a keda... i am a hopeapholic!