September 26, 2009

A dream-induced nostalgia!


Days ago, I had a dream, a strange one…

I was in the art therapy studio, knowing that Dr. M had passed away, I don’t exactly remember if there were other people, but I was very close to the wall that had his self portraits and none of them was there!

I kept touching the bare walls as I fought to hold back my tears… I wanted to cry so badly…

I woke up feeling extremely down and depressed…

The same day I visited an old friend from my previous job at her home… she had a big portrait of our late boss S, the one I loved and respected.

I kept staring at the old photo with her skin revealing that it was taken when she was younger than when I’ve known her… and I forced the words to come to my mouth “Allah yer7amek ya S” then I paused and said “wa7shany awy!”

Today, I was in downtown running a government related errand. While waiting for the driver to pick me up, I decided to walk around; I was in my sneakers and the weather was nice. I kept walking from one random street to the other until I stopped to read the name of the street - “شارع شمبليون”… I stopped, looked across the street to the far extension on its other side and realized that I was a few blocks away from the Art Therapy Center. I stood there for a while as if I was lost, my eyes had tears and my heart felt heavy, then I said “Allah yer7amak ya Dr. M” and got on the sidewalk and continued walking towards Tahrir Square.

Other than that, I had a good day. Alhamdulilah.

I was off to bed, and I suddenly remembered all that and had the strong urge to write about it, so there!

7 comments:

ibhog said...

they might be gloomy, but the days after such dreams are always surreal and peaceful.

Rabena yer7amhom gamee3an :)

insomniac said...

mmmm

i like it when i have those dreams no matter how sad i feel waking up... i think of it as God's way to help me see those i miss in my dreams since i can't see them elsewhere...

i never took notice of the following days... but i guess there's truth to what you said in a sense...

ameen :))

Ice Queer said...

I always see that dreams are mystically interesting! =)

P.S I love it when your posts are short but rich

insomniac said...

i love to reflect on my dreams!

and are you by any chance implying that my posts are usually too long ;)

Ice Queer said...

lol honestly, I don't read any blog post when it is too long *guilty*

insomniac said...

mmmm, now i know that i can lose you with long posts... from now on, the long ones will have stuff i don't want you to read!!

:P

actually, i already know people lose interest with long posts, and this is where i pour my heart knowing very few would read between the lines if they actually get through the lines...

(waiting for a gemini-related comment)

Ice Queer said...

Hahaha no comment! =P