July 10, 2009

After midnight blabbers…


It’s been a while, and I keep having random thoughts in my head that drive me insane, but not long enough for me to write them down. However, tonight I just have an unbearable urge to let them out, or at least some...


This is one of the loud thoughts I have in my head…

Wouldn’t this world be a much better place if each one of us believed that everyone is someone else’s father/mother, son/daughter, brother/sister and/or, husband/wife… as in that each and everyone one of us has a bunch of people in his/her life who think great deal of him/her!!

Yeah, I am starting to understand why exactly most of my friends think I need to be admitted into some facility that “protects” people like me! But really, just take a moment to imagine it; better yet, take a minute to think of someone you dislike as someone else’s special person! (I don’t necessarily mean special special)



This word keeps echoing in my head for no good reason!

Yearning, as in: Longing, aching, nostalgic… I have no idea for what!!



Current Soundtrack…

Charles Aznavour Duos!! I still can’t get over the intensity of his voice in different languages! The way he says each word makes my heart skip beats!!!!

Nina Simone’s The Keeper of the Flame made me tear up when it played randomly in the car; I wasn’t even paying attention to the lyrics, but the music definitely hit a nerve I am unaware of!

I am not sure if the soundtrack stirred the nostalgia and the yearning or if I am vulnerable to the music because of those feeling; either way, they get along fine!!



The daily annoyances…

The infamous X… the annoying colleague at work who wouldn’t let me ignore him… and the governmental officials that make me want to forget about them being someone else’s special and kill them or wish them horrible deaths, especially that freakin’ officer with the dirty looks, I wish that one turns blind!!

I should have also mentioned the evil side of me since I am wishing all the above all the shit they made me go through during the past few days!



My little blessings

My cute little monsters of kids; I can’t get over how sweet and kind Beem is, and how hilarious and cute my Mocha is, pretty much makes up for how nagging Beem can be and how crazy and aggressive Mocha is!!

The little extra bonus at work and the medical insurance refund (yeah I kinda need the money)

My dad’s little surprise that I hope would come to term without any disappointment (God, I know I am asking for way too much!!)

The few laughs I had with Rasha yesterday and today, aside from the nakad movie that had the poor thing sobbing!



The things I KNOW I should do...

Show God my gratitude, as in do my prayers on time we balash estehbal… Clean up the damn room… save money… spend more time with the boys and enjoy them… watch out… finalize all pendings at work on daily basis or whatever closest ( I hate loose ends at work and I’ve been leaving a lot behind!)… catch up with a lot of my friends…

There must be a lot more but I am too tired now; I think I’ll call it a night…



Hoping and praying for a good weekend pour moi and for all of you out there… be well.

8 comments:

Rasha* said...

well, i like that post...there's something sweet and simple about it...aside from the nakad movie, the annoying X and officials who should get blind...actually, i believe he was ma3my 7asheesh...his eyes were horrible :D

noting that it is after 3 am and i am eating konafa men 3and qwaider..not the blogger i assure u hehehe...yeah...and mhayesa...a long day...tough times...decisions and alb gamed!

u r beautiful...and u r really blessed and u should thank allah gamed...mesh l2any sa7betek he3 he3 he3...la2...for other cuties and beauties in ur life.

love u gedan...mhayesa hugs*

Sou-One-Canobee said...

Oh M, I like how you wrote down all the mental vomit you have running around inside that brain of yours. Hope you had a nice weekend cause mine was sure not that good. I hope to see you soon dear. Keep well and safe :)

Will E. said...

It doesn't help to imagine someone as somebody's brother/sister/husband/father.. because it really doesn't matter. The things brothers and sisters do to each other is enough to invalidate that thought.

The truth is that being someone's relative is but a natural way to get to know him better.. doesn't change who he is really. Meaning it doesn't add or change to the character.

insomniac said...

Roosh,

enty elly sweet... the nakad movie wasn't bad, it was just too intense and it made you cry :(

the x, mesh hatkallem, khaleeny sakta... the officer, babe, you saw tha 7allouf guy, you should have seen el 3aqeed elly 3ayez yetsadaghloh we yetkheze2lo 3eneeh; i need a shower just to wash off the way he looked at me!!

enty elly beautiful ya amar :$ and babe, you're one of the people i'm grateful i have in my life, you have no idea!!

insomniac said...

Sou,

that was filtered vomit sweetie, influenced my an averagely good mood :)

i had a lazy weekend... not bad, can't complain... sorry your weekend didn't rock... it WILL get better isA, keep looking out for the good stuff ;)))

insomniac said...

Will...

were you trying to prove me more naive than i already implied i was?!!

i know fathers/mothers, brothers/sisters, sons/daughters, husbands/wives abuse their loved ones, maho if they hadn't, this world wouldn't be so horrible....

and yes, having relatives doesn't change who they are... but don't you think that each and every person is loved for who they are even if for a brief period of time, they mean something to someone that makes them a little bit precious....

my point was, there must be something about a person that makes them worth being nice to...

way way of trying to hold back the
hate i think a lot of people deserve... i guess i needed my cynical dose, thanks!

Abdelsalam Rashad said...

Welcome back..

insomniac said...

that's all!