July 21, 2009

Mafeesh Fayda!!


I'm joking and laughing as if there were no tears a while ago!

I'm telling myself that it was no big deal and that I better stop obsessing and move on already!

I'm too stubborn to allow myself to ache and take time to heal, God forbid I would collapse in the healing process, hasn't he said that in my stubbornness lies my strength!

So I lock it in, stand up and pretend nothing ever happened, it's easier, comme d'habitude!

I do it knowing that I am just burying something that will rise later to haunt me, and I am saying it's ok; I'll be stronger by then!!

But I know it will hit me when I need to be strong to make me weaker...

Yet I'm doing what I do best, I laugh and change the subject with a witty joke!!

13 comments:

Ice Queer said...

I know it's hard but to try not to be a typical divorcée! plz

insomniac said...

and what's a typical divorcee?

Sou-One-Canobee said...

Dont do that to yourself dear I mean the situation is already hurtful and people hurt each other without any remorse So you do not need to do that to yourself as well do not hurt yourself M. Give yourself a freaking break.

insomniac said...

Sou,

thanks for the advice dear :)

for hatever it's worse, i'm much better alhamdulilah :) thanks for the support :)

hurricane_x said...

Why don't we "really" start loving ourselves?!!
I mean... we do not deserve to be tormented by past or current circumstanes. So is it that hard to set ourselves free from this torment?!!
That's not an advice. I'm just asking myself!!

insomniac said...

i know you're thinking out loud...

bas fe 7aga...

it has nothing to do with loving ourselves...

i love myself, but i still fall victim of my own torment, not on purpose...

Ice Queer said...

A typical divorcée is the one who has a negative aura, keeps bitterly talking about the past & present and disses her ex & the society whenever possible!

Inso, u r MUCH more better than that! I know it and u know it.

insomniac said...

IQ :)

mmmm nobody ever told me i had a negative aura, the whole point of this post is that i don't allow myself to even when i think i should!!

as for dissing the x, it belongs to like, umm, 3 posts ago!! this has nothing to do with him..l. and he really deserves the dissing when i do, you'd join me if you know the things he does :))

as for the society, i have another blog to dis it as an official divorcee ;))) come on, you actually think this society is too good for dissing?!!

anyways, i'll try to be a different kind of divorcee, it shouldn't be hard!

Ice Queer said...

Haha I love to criticize geminis =P

Inso, do u want me to go thru all ur posts and do a small statistics to support my point? =P

insomniac said...

LOL

well you seem to have the time to do it, knock yourself out =P

aaaaaaaaaandddd

baby, don't critisize me as a gemini, i also have sagi ascendant, a moon in cancer and a few planets in libra and one vendictive planet in scorpio, it's the one that's responsible for all the dissing :PP

insomniac said...

oh,

i didn't mean to disown my gemini-ness, never will...

i was just saying: carefull, i also have water and fire in me, the only think i don't have is earth!! if i memory serves!

Abdelsalam Rashad said...

Long time no blogging??
Are u going for a record of unblogging??
Hope u r ok..

insomniac said...

well, i was vacationing and getting sick and still trying to recover... thanks for checking :))

and for someone who doesn't blog that often, you surely are an active follower ;)