July 21, 2009
I'm joking and laughing as if there were no tears a while ago!
I'm telling myself that it was no big deal and that I better stop obsessing and move on already!
I'm too stubborn to allow myself to ache and take time to heal, God forbid I would collapse in the healing process, hasn't he said that in my stubbornness lies my strength!
So I lock it in, stand up and pretend nothing ever happened, it's easier, comme d'habitude!
I do it knowing that I am just burying something that will rise later to haunt me, and I am saying it's ok; I'll be stronger by then!!
But I know it will hit me when I need to be strong to make me weaker...
Yet I'm doing what I do best, I laugh and change the subject with a witty joke!!