September 21, 2008

Hanging in there...



I feel too much weight, invisible weight yet its presence is very much felt…
It’s pulling me down, limb by limb…
My feet are too heavy to lift; I can’t seem to walk…
My arms are too saggy to carry themselves, let alone carry things…
My fingers can barely move to type, not even slowly…
Even ideas, they seem to be too heavy to float in my head…
I can move, but my movement seems to be in one direction; downwards…
I just can’t lift myself up anymore…
Like one of those marionettes hanging by its strings, the only thing that keeps it from surrendering to the weight of gravity and falling are those damn strings...
Only my strings are invisible and there's no way to tell how long they will carry me, with all that weight...
Will I be falling soon?
I wish I were a marionette; at least then, I wouldn't be wondering...


* Picture credit goes to Evaluna. Thanks.

4 comments:

Sherif said...

Fasting effect ??
Probably yes .. fasting maybe having no desire to think or even talk, or losing appetite to do anything?

This is just feeling bored .. yet this is temporary .. and you'll soon regain your vivacity .. cause you are strong inso ..

insomniac said...

i'm afraid Ramadan would be over but the effect would remain...

i hope it is temporary like you say, but then again, isn't everything temporary, even those moments when we feel better?!

gee, i sound depressed like my friend was telling me!

Evaluna said...

oh you should never wish to be a marionette... you never know who will be in charge of your strings... things could get ugly and even more frustrating!

feel better...

insomniac said...

you think a marionette cares!

the whole point of wishing to be one is that it'snot aware and it couldn't care any less...